I started this in 2015.. and I believe I know where this was coming from, and where it may have been going, so I’m just gonna leave this right here to post since it’s been sitting in drafts for 3 years lol. Also, I found it rather interesting I was writing about my thoughts on doing what I’m “supposed” to do, especially to see where I am recently – I’ve been evolving for years! 🙂
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(Nov 2015)
What is it about patience that is so difficult?
I mean I’ve given a lot of my time.. A lot. A lot of effort.. A whole lot.
Iv’e given a lot of energy, and love, and commitment.. Omg, SO MUCH of those.
Is that what it is? That with patience.. you just never know how much longer you’re “supposed” to wait..
But.. If you’re reading this and know anything about me, you know I don’t believe in things you are “supposed” to do.
Which brings me to another point – I feel like thats what I’ve been doing.
UGH. I’m tired.
I’m tired of feeling invaluable.
I think about how I’ve dealt with things in the past. At least from my own view, I’m not proud of those moments.
I feel like I’ve finally come to a point where I have made proper decisions based on what has been handed to me.
I’ve stayed, as others would say, mature.. Lol
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(Aug 2018)
Just based on where I am now, I’m going to make a pretty good assumption that I was tired of living based on what I was “supposed” to do, expectation, and settling. On top of that, I wish I had time to elaborate on the patience question. That will have to wait for another post.
But in a quick note, I know from where I was then, and where I am now, I have learned patience is not easy. It takes practice, hope, and understanding. And patience is not so much the aspect of “waiting” as it is mentally and emotionally preparing for what’s to come. On top of that, patience also reminds us of our journey. Life will always happen when it’s good and ready to happen to us, because our journey is ours, on our own separate timeline.
Remember to focus on your journey, not others’ journeys, or where some people may want you to go. Practice patience, or at least mental and emotional preparation for what is meant for you.
❤
To New Beginnings 